My deepest fear is that I am not good enough.
How can I be? I am an empty shell without love.
Who can love someone so broken deep inside?
I swept the pieces under my heart and my vulnerabilities out of sight.
The external voices shout out, so accomplished, so talented, stand in your light.
How can I stand in the light, when I feel so ashamed and unworthy inside?
I hear the words ‘I am not enough’ echoing in the hollow chamber of my heart,
A shy voice whispers you are beautiful, you are gifted, and you are smart!
I repeat stubbornly, I am not, I AM not, I AM NOT!
The voice responded, a bit louder, YOU are, YOU ARE, YOU JUST FORGOT!
At the height of my pity party, my inner child threw a tantrum of note.
“STOP IT”, she shouted shaking me. “Yours is not the only vote!”
“Put the streamers away, close up the party, say no more.”
She marched my guests, Pity, Shame, Sadness straight out the door.
“You are not broken; you are a beautiful soul.
Get back into the driver’s seat, just switch off cruise control.
Choose me, nurture me”, she said… “fill your heart with self-love.
Just know deep inside, that you are always more than enough.”
“Let your light shine radiantly so that you may see,
You are loved, blessed and most especially worthy.”
Ashnie Muthusamy ©
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